The planning of my Thailand trip has been going on now for over a year and the wheels are very much set in motion. However, I'm starting to think that I've taken this idea of me going so far away a little too lightly.
It's all been about the preparation so far and what fun it is to be playing the part (for at the moment that is how it feels) of the daughter/sister/friend that is going away to a far flung land and how ''so excited i am'' to be going and ''wont it be great for you all to fly out to Thailand to see me'' etc, but now that the preparation time is coming to an end and the reality of the situation is becoming clearer and nearer, i find that the knots in my stomach are becoming tighter and tighter. It is a staggering 30000 miles to Thailand from London, on an 11 hour flight with tickets costing upwards of £400! It's not like my friends and family can just pop over on a long weekend!
As wonderful as the idea is of people coming out to see me and however many good intentions there are of them doing just so, i think the fact remains that life will, inevitably, get in the way and that that is all they will end up being, good intentions and I am not going to see my friends and family again for a while. Please don't misunderstand me, I'm not at all bitter or angry about it, far from it in fact as they are all on their own Big Adventures, whether that be a well deserved once in a lifetime holiday, marriage, new jobs, new houses or new babies and i will happily and willingly give them all the support and love that they have shown me.....it's just that they are such a big part of my life and i am sad, because i know how much i shall miss them.
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OMG I nearly cried!
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